So much beauty lately..

Everywhere I turn I see something new that inspires me to do more creative things with my time.

Yesterday on my way to work, I saw the most beautiful clouds. I really wanted to keep them still as future reference for an illustration. I think I should get a camera and start recording things I stumble upon.

Good research is the mother of good illustration (Mine).

One thing I really like about the idea of getting different reference photographs, is that it trully gives alot of power over the perspective available.

Maybe I should make a series of photographs over a single subject with different perspectives presented?

That idea needs more thought.

I admit I feel a bit ill (*cough*) but I am hiding it very well from everyone.

The weather is slowly changing again.

I spent the better part of the night talking on the phone with a friend who is far away from me.

We spoke of many things that I rarely have the chance to discuss with others and I admit I felt relieved I did.

Truth can be many different things for many different people. My heart no matter how honest it might be, cannot reach out to the one person it cares for.

Does that mean that what I feel is a lie?

I feel a little sad, a little lonely and a little naked within my soul.

Everything seems blue these past few days. I am beginning to understand that you can actually feel alone even within a room full of friends and loved ones.

Where can I find that someone who can complete me?

The answer I was given is that only 'I' can fill that place.. yet I tend to believe otherwise. I have found myself.. now I need to find my partner.

I feel like I have to be silent. Then again.. I am strangely optimistic that something beautiful comes my way.

The best thing I can do is smile and wait.

It seems that it is a requirement nowadays to love someone. Funny enough it is not always possible to find the right person.

Everything related to love I have seen in my life is mostly either fake or staged (a huge theatre stage filled with actors of all levels).

Everyone wants to follow a pre-written script of how the experience should be.

Where can someone find something real?

I am frustrated.

I am such a fool. I keep doing the same mistakes over and over in my life.

Too much faith in others and their real motives. Too much faith in myself and my ability to fly above.

Just keep dreaming fool.

I have decided to give up trying for the ideal. It simply does not exist the way I would have expected it to.

I will try to see what is real from this time on.

Perhaps what I really want can found in what is really there.

One more disillusioned PureGhost.

I have found a new crossroad in my life. Should I turn left or right?
Would you fly or would you swim if you knew how to do neither?

I am puzzled.